See you soon..

Its Final Exam Week, I'm so closer to my last day of duty, this coming March 31. (although its not yet official 'coz I haven't submitted my resignation letter yet!). Everyday I'm getting more and more excited of knowing what the future holds for me. It was not an easy decision honestly. The fact that you would leave the first company that you loved for almost three years, the people who first shared to you the feeling of being a professional, molded you and brought out the best in you, your second home almost, its really not easy to let go. But I have to be firm, as much as i want to stay, I am my family's only hope. If I wont try my luck somewhere else now for a greener pasture, i don't know when will be the right time, I'm not getting any younger. Its like now or never for me. Although there is no job yet waiting for me after this, I'm positive that I could have one and better when I get there, in Singapore (If Allah wills). By last week of April or first week of May, I'll be leaving Zamboanga for Malaysia, spend time with my sister for few days and from there to Singapore which is like few minutes flight away.

Stuck in a Frozen River...

"I would spend my every second making them feel that I would still be here for them while I still can"

Last night, as I was having problem with my sleeping habit, I looked for something to entertain my self with (gross!), something that would really lay me to bed. I opened my PC and checked the drives where I saved all the movies that I downloaded. I realized that I still had 10 movies to watch and most of it are Drama. Since I was forcing my self to sleep, i double-clicked the FROZEN RIVER film and started watching it, thinking that it would help me walk through my bed. As the movie started, i got more and more interested with the story. It was about a mother who sacrificed a lot for her 15 and 5 yrs old sons. It made me miss my mom so much, like a flash back, I recalled how much our mother sacrificed for us. That after the death of our father, she faced everything just to raise us all (four of us).Did so many jobs just to feed us, and send us to school. I envy TJ (the 15-yr old son in the film) so much, because he had the chance to make her mother feel that he will always be with her, that he loved her so much without even saying the words. I wished i had all the time to spend it with my mom and my sisters more. How I wished I could turn back time and would make up to her.Wished that I could make her feel the joy and happiness without going through so much pain. But I guess that's how life is, everything is borrowed and not permanent, what He (God) creates shall go back to Him indeed. But I'm still blessed coz I still got my sisters, and soon my own family. I would spend my every second making them feel that I would still be here for them while I still can.