A Treat for myself

Got myself a new phone yesterday (picture on the right), finally I've got the phone that I have always wanted. Not the exact model though, but the color, the features and the style is really "shoot sa banga". W595 Model Sony Erickson Walkman has 3.2 megapixel camera and 2gb memory card and expandable upto 8gb,not really bad for Php9,000.00 (just 8,750 to be exact, with 250.00 discount). I really now believed that if something is gone, always expect for something better to come. I didn't really worry myself too much when I lost my old phone for three years last December which cost around Php 5,000.00 way back in 2007, 'coz I knew, better unit was reserved for me, and this is it now. My Cherry Mobile phone that i bought a day after i lost my old phone is now an extra and I'm thinking of selling it or I'll buy an extra Sun Cellular SIM for the "Unlimited Call Promo".

Aside from a cool phone, one my best friends (San) arrived home from Kuwait last Friday, and she gave me her brand new 250 Gb External Hard Disk as a "pasalubong". Just like the phone, External HDD was also one of the things that I always want to buy for myself 'coz my laptop has just 80 Gb internal HDD. Next stuff that I need to save for is an External DVD Drive, 'coz my laptop's drive only plays VCDs and writer doesn't work properly, and I think i'm gonna buy one before February ends (Inshallah!).

The Look Back

Its 2010 already. Looking back for the past few years when I once told myself if 2010 comes I should be achieving something in my life, both personal and professional. Just this week, when I was cleaning some files on my computer, I came across the budget file in MS Excel format that I once made when the year 2009 was starting. I targeted that I should be saving at least Php 30,000 before 2009 ends, but its 2010 and I haven’t saved any amount yet.

I also remember last 2008 when my ex-girlfriend and I were still in love with each other, we planned that by 2010 we would be settling down. But just like the 2008 ended, our relationship also ended for good. I even thought by 2010, I’ll be finishing my Masters Degree, but here I am, not even pursuing for it, and I don’t even know if I would still go for it this year, or even for this coming years.

Just also last year when I left Zamboanga for Manila to work abroad, I was hoping before 2009 ends I would be working outside Philippines and earn more so that I can provide more to my family. But here I am, still in Manila for almost 8 months now.

A year or two had passed now and you start asking yourself. Where are those dreams now? What happened? Did you really work for it? Maybe because you don’t really like doing it after all, or maybe for some reason when one thing in your life changed, you just somehow relive your life, relive your dreams and start things over. And because of that, you start to avoid the things you have done in the past, including the things you wanted to do before. It’s like you want a new YOU. But before you blame yourself for not chasing your own dream, for messing up your own plans, ask yourself, what did you want to have why you want those things anyway? Are you still achieving them? I told myself, Hey, I haven’t saved anything but at least I have provided what my family needs, I have stayed here in Manila for almost 8 months now but did I waste it? I’m earning more for myself and for my family and what’s more important about it, is that I am enjoying it.