Always hope for the best but expect the worst

"Always hope for the best but expect the worst" as they always say, which is really true. Things are not always work the way how you want it to be, you thought you play it cool, safe and fair, but still it doesn't end up how you planned it.

I'm not trying to sound so desperate 'coz i'm not, i'm just a bit frustrated, not being pessimistic but just stating facts. Where are all these coming from? Well, let's say at work, I was trying to pass all the metrics this month, it was all green in my scorecard, 'til one metric, which is a major metric went red on the 29th ('coz of two zero surveys from customers, they could have been responded to it on May 1st). Too bad right?i was trying my best to hit all green maybe for the first time, although it's not easy to do it, but there are people in our work who could. I want to be one of them, i don't want to be a mediocre. But anyway it's just one metric, over-all i did great, I don't need to wait my coach or anyone from the work to tell me that, 'coz i know i'm good. Perfect attendance, with exceeding the number of sales and expecting incentives this month, what could I ask for?..

Also at work, the girl that i talked about in my last post, I don't know if she and one of my co-agents are together, I'm so pathetic that I couldn't tell her how I feel. I saw them together yesterday which I knew they would go home together that's why I went home without telling her (i used to leave her a message on our messenger before leaving the office). I was trying not to see them but I still saw them from a far, there was a bit of not so good feelings, but I have to deal with it. Although there is no confirmation that there are official but it still hurts especially people at work tease them together. But that's ok, this is just one of the things i have to deal with, and i know i'll be over it soon, I'm not giving up just yet, one day she will be mine, i just got to prove to myself and to here that what i feel for her is real so not to compromise everything.