It's not just yet for me...

It's almost 4 am and can't still sleep. I haven't taken my last meal for today (we can only eat till 4:30am this Ramadan), maybe 20 minutes before 4:30 hehe, not hungry yet though..Just done watching two films in a row, Baler and He's Not Just So Into You. Both love stories (so cheezy I know!), I don't know why I watched them, maybe I just want to convince my self once again that love can really happen. Maybe it happens only once in your lifetime, just maybe...Anyway, don't want to talk about love anymore, I'm contented with the one I am with right now, though she is miles away, at least I know she cares, that's enough for me. So, I just notice that I am not posting anymore here in my blog, there is nothing much to post though, same old routines since June, work, work and work while waiting for better opportunity. I hope by October I can only leave for Saudi, or any where with better salary. Agencies start to contact me now, hope this is really it. There is no assurance yet for it, but nothing is really sure in this world right?(seriously, it's really true), but it is nice to believe and hope for it.

For now, I need to keep a job,'coz I don't know if I can still stand for it 'till next month. I can handle the work (I think..or not) but the trip from home to work is like 'hell', I need to allot at least 2 hours for for me to get ready to work, not to mention the super traffic or the delay of MRT (which always happens at peak hours). I don't like it here but I need to like it, for me to survive.I really believe this is just one of the assessments or examinations that I need to pass, and I know I can make it. For now, whatever I like is not just yet for me, but someday it will, I just need to be someone who deserves it.